i remember i used to write about love,
now all i write about is not wanting to be loved.
Im lieing of course i want to be loved, but as i get older its the guilt that comes with it that i dont want.
Its like love and guilt just walk into my heart hand in hand.
I doubt they are friends, i think its more of a case of keeping your enemies closer.
I feel guilty drinking but i love to drink, i feel guilty loving because i love to cheat.
I love feeling guilty sometimes because it means i have cheated and i feel i have still got it!
'got what?'
My long suffering girlfriend (of 8 months?)
i havent cheated yet but i still feel guilty! why?
Its because i love her but i know it wont last because she slept with me on the first date!
And i know another bloke who she slept with on the first date (and he's 2ft tall)....it hurts.
I feel guilty because she hears wedding bells and the pitter patter of feet, and all i hear is her crying and my prada's slapping against the pavement as i run away to get another line?
The girls i have loved have loved me, but how can i respect thier love when they love celebrity, posessions, big brother, crap music and the colour pink?
And how can i trust my love when i love cheating, posessions, drugs, binge drinking and
"Writing a book?" someone has just said to me' NO IM NOT NOW FUCK OFF!!...jesus i cant even write down on a piece of paper without some fucker being a smart arse!!
Where was i? oh yeah love and guilt...Oh fuck it
Id love to kill that smart arse and guilty your on your own!!!!
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mikeyboy
- 2006-02-22 @ 14:16:36
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Elvisismydad
- 2006-02-22 @ 15:35:29
Spot on Mikeyboy!
Your right about the lists 'they do change' and sometimes they compliment each other.
Thats probably why i have been with the bitch for 8months!!
I am now in the process of writing a new love list (after your comments)and i have already changed binge drinking to alcohol abuse and drugs to Harder drugs and cheating to orgies.
I am hoping this will speed up the splitting up process because her list will have to up a gear to keep up with mine, and i cant see celebrity big bro, More posessions, crapper music, and the colour red saving our love!!
You d' man Mikeyboy i shall send you a thank you blog whilst i am in rehab and all alone.....aka paradise with the shivers.
I have a little story about smoking a spliff watching big brother -
One night me and my buddy gav were sitting in his girlfriends house having a smoke and yup you guessed it watching big bro! Anyway my mates bird doesnt smoke weed and she was bitchin at us to shut up and watch the tele, coz we were getting all philisophical about Zidane and football. (who doesnt?) We ignored her but lowered the tone of our voices but she carries on moanin and whinging and moaning at us, after about half an hour we were fed up of talking to each other and listening to her moan. So we just stopped talking and started to watch 'BB'. But as we done this a shower scene came on and a tasty looking blonde bird was in the shower!
(You dont get to see much do ye: (
And my mates bird being the jealous type jumps up and starts punching my mate in the face.. i was in stitches but i could see my mate was in pain coz his bird was a big big girl. So i pulled her off him, and he jumped up and decides to have a piss on the back off the tele
(whilst the girl was in the shower)
i nearly fuckin passed out it looked like the bird was having golden showers...well until the sparks started flying literally: )
So yes i know what you mean about a spliff and big bro...fucking brilliant!! -
"The girls i have loved have loved me, but how can i respect thier love when they love celebrity, posessions, big brother, crap music and the colour pink?
And how can i trust my love when i love cheating, posessions, drugs, binge drinking"
That's great stuff. I especially agree with 'celebrity' - repulses me when people talk about it so genuinely. That stuff you said goes through the minds of many people, even if the actual content of your list changes. As far as I can tell (and I've never got as far as 8 months so maybe I don't know) it's all about those two lists somehow complimenting each other.... sometimes they go well: ever had a spliff to big brother? You feel really dirty afterwards but my God it makes for an involving two hours.